Hi. I'm Gina.
Welcome to my blog. This blog documents my journey to loving my body and anything else that comes my way. Hope you have a nice stay!
Welcome to my blog. This blog documents my journey to loving my body and anything else that comes my way. Hope you have a nice stay!
Here you will find some diary entrees, thoughts and other anecdotes.
I was realizing recently that this is a journey and I understand that, so every day is different. Certain days I have to remind myself that. Some days are hard and the self talk is really bad and other days I wouldn't even know that this is a journey. The other day I was thinking about the way I treat myself and my body. I decided that I'm going to treat my body more like my daughter. I love and nurture her to help her grow so why wouldn't I do the same for myself. What if I said some of the things that I say, what would happen If I said them to her, what would her reaction be and how would she grow, what type of person would she be and grow into. So this moment forward I'm truly going to talk the same way I talk to her to myself!
I've been really thinking about how my life has changed for the better since I've started to mediate. Although my practice isn't as consistent as I would like it to be. I do really see a change in the voice inside my head. I was thinking about this the other day after I meet a friend for brunch. I ordered the Florentine Benedict, can I just say it sat on top of a scallion cheddar biscuit! Yes you heard that right! ok I digress, We also shared the pumpkin pancakes which had this amazing sugar spiced topping on it. Normally after that my self talk would be very degrading and condescending, "what how did you eat all that" "ugh seriously gina". But this time it was much different. I literally enjoyed ever bite of it along with our amazing conversation. I truly did that and enjoyed everything within that moment. And when it was done it was just that done, no self talk!
Please take a look at The Mindful Scroll I'm so exciting she's running a 4 week meditation series. Weather you already have a practice or want to start one up she's here to help, hope to see you!
I have a 2 year old. One day it hit me she's like my little mirror. A mirror I might have not wanted to look into, but being that I can't deny her adorable innocent cuteness, it became all to real. Although she just seems to mimic the things I say to her and she proceeds to say them to her baby. Like when she was 1 and she dropped something, she would say "Oh Sheesh", which I begrudgingly new was "oh shit". I'd be lying if I didn't cringe in that moment.
This realization has made me address the way I view my body and the way I view food differently. I don't want to pass that along to her. I don't want my daughter growing up with a mom that doesn't love or appreciate her body the very body that birthed her. I realize now more than ever that loving my body could help break this.
It's so strange once you have a child how all of these issues that never really seemed like issues before arise, but when you realize that you will be the one molding this little innocent life, you realize it's time to change.
beau-ty / `byoote/ n.
a combination of qualities, such as shape, color, or form, that pleases the aesthetic senses, especially the sight. "I was struck by her beauty"
Beauty is such an odd thing to me. I think it's because everyone has there own opinion and what you may find beautiful I may not. I see so much beauty in the world, weather that be in humanity or in living things.
When it comes to being fat people think that fat = ugly. I can't tell you how many times I've heard someone say "your pretty for a big girl". How could I not think "what the f=@%k is that supposed to mean". So lets break it down from this statement big girls aren't pretty, attractive or who knows what else.
When talking about Beauty I can't help, but think of it's opposite "ugly"Being a larger women I feel that many people equate fat to being ugly. There are so many things that I see in myself and outside of myself that I find beautiful, but is that enough? When people see me they see my size they don't see what is inside my heart or head. It's hard to think that people may just not be.
When deciding on the name for the blog I've always liked Berri, one because to me berry's are sweet, juicy although they are small and round they always pack such flavor!
The start of , BERRI, Big. Edgy. Radiant. Real. Iconic. Part of the acronym is what I represent, Big, Radiant and Real. Big my size, Radiant my personality, Real what I strive to be on this blog, you wont see any retouching on my page maybe pretty filters, but no slimming or trimming or removing lumps bumps or double chins. I also like to think that I'm edgy, and I'm sure some of my friends would agree. Iconic is something I strive to be, I know that word is deep and heavy. I want to be an inspiration to girls that look like me.
I look forward to seeing where this blog will take me and most of all how it will help others.
